October 8, 2010 in Uncategorized with 6 Comments

Over the past couple days we have noticed that Gray is becoming quite cranky and upset. The nurses at the hospital told us that chemo has a tendency to do that. Also, the daily shots that we have to give Gray make him achy, which I can only imagine adds to his crankiness. Gray also, unfortunately, has started having night terrors. Night terrors are pretty normal for a child Gray’s age but the chemo and stress of his life right now is making them much worse then a normal child’s would be. It definitely makes for long nights and pretty much NO sleep.  The night terrors are violent and difficult to get through. Last night we were up at 2AM. Today, we made our first visit back to the hospital for blood tests to check where Gray’s white blood cell levels are. It wasn’t good news. Cancer patients become susceptible to infection when the count is below 500 and when Gray’s results came in his white blood cell count was 22. Needless to say, Gray has almost lost all ability to fight infection and so won’t be able to be around others. Things are pretty stressful right now. We’re all in desperate need of sleep and nervous about keeping Gray away from any and all germs. Please pray that Gray’s night terrors will subside and that our entire family will be able to sleep through the night and wake refreshed. We need all the energy we can muster just to take care of Gray’s needs each day. Please also pray for peace. The stress and anxiety of our “new normal” is overwhelming. Gray did enjoy, however, playing in the hospital play room this morning. He’s still just a kid! And for that we’re grateful!

“When I think I’m going under, part the waters Lord. When I feel the waves around me part the sea. When I cry for help, Oh hear me Lord and hold out your hand. Touch my life, still the raging storm in me.”  -Selah