December 5, 2010 in Uncategorized with 13 Comments

Today Grayson turned THREE!!!! Gray had a really good day! He played all day and was his typical mischievious self. He ended his birthday the best way any three year old could…with his blanky, his binky and a Bibleman video! There is such a different feeling that comes along with a birthday when you are facing cancer. Even though we’ve had many good reports lately concerning Gray’s prognosis you still can’t help but cherish a birthday more then you normally would. It’s almost unfair that when you feel like celebrating a birthday the most you are allowed to the least. If we had our way we would probably throw a huge birthday celebration carnival style going all out with petting zoos, games, candy and as many friends as we could cram into our house! Why not? We’re excited to see our baby boy happy and growing another year older!!!! But unfortunately, even with all the excitement we are feeling our little boy can’t be around large groups of people. Sigh. It’s just another reminder of how isolating cancer can be. We’re not completely without celebration, though. This week we are having a small party for Gray with most family and a few close friends. It’ll be wonderful to throw even a small party for our little man! The hardest part of today, Grayson’s third birthday, was that we had to end the day by giving Gray his medicine and a shot. NO little boy should have to end his birthday that way but that’s just life right now. It’s not easy and it’s not even fair but it’s becoming our routine. Almost second nature. Please continue to pray for strength in Grayson’s body and peace for Gray as well. He has been extremely agitated, weepy and very clingy to mom. Gray can’t really convey to us how he feels about all that is going on in his life and so we often feel frustrated that we are unable to understand his feelings. It makes it difficult to meet Gray’s needs. Also, Gray is scheduled to be admitted back to the hospital this Thursday for his fourth round of inpatient chemo. We go back to the clinic on Monday to make sure Gray’s blood levels are high enough to actually receive treatment. As of last week, though, everything looks good to move forward with this coming round of chemo. As you know, Gray did get sick with his third round and so please pray that that doesn’t happen again. We need an easy round of chemo…if there is such a thing. Through it all, we must say that  Gray’s smile is still helping us through each day of this journey. He truly is the awnriest, happiest, most care free kid and we couldn’t have been blessed with better. Thank you all for your continued support. Even as time marches on and the initial shock of Gray’s diagnosis wears off we can still feel your love and prayers each and every day. It makes more of a difference then you can possibly know.

“For surely, O Lord, you bless the righteous; you surround them with your favor as with a shield.”  -Psalm 5:12