October 5, 2010 in Uncategorized with 7 Comments

Our first week in the hospital, from surgery to diagnosis to finally today, has been a journey in and of itself. It’s something we couldn’t have ever imagined our family would walk through nor would we have ever asked to. It’s not something we would wish on anyone else and yet here we are. This week brought desperation, anxiety, fear, many tears, a reordering of priorities and also fresh faith. It’s not only been a “fight against cancer” journey but also an emotional and physical journey for us all. If there’s one thing that any of us can learn through this, though, whether you have sat with Gray in the hospital or simply read his story on this website it’s that in the midst of tragedy, in the midst of fear and even in the midst of your worst nightmare there is still LIVING to be done! There are still smiles to enjoy, laughs to be shared and memories to be made! Gray, with the innocent faith of a child, hasn’t hidden under a blanket feeling sorry for himself. Instead, he, going through many grown-ups worst fear in life, is making US laugh and reminding us that life is still here! He is still here! It’s not time to mope and be angry (although there is a place for that!) but instead it’s time to love those closest to you a bit more, hug your kids a bit harder, make a memory last a bit longer and just give yourself and your loved ones the one thing that can’t ever be taken away and that you can’t ever get back…time! Please look at these pictures from the past week and pray over Gray, remember times you’ve shared with him and even shed a tear but then learn from him! Live! Laugh! Love! Don’t take a single moment for granted!

“As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, O God. My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When can I go and meet with God? My tears have been my food day and night, while men say to me all day long, Where is your God? Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet priase him, my savior and my God. My soul is downcast within me; therefore I will remember you. Deep calls to deep in the roar of your waterfalls: all your waves and breakers have swept over me. By day the Lord directs his love, at night his song is with me –  a prayer to the God of my life. I say to God my Rock, Why have you forgotten me? Why must I go about mourning, oppressed by the enemy? My bones suffer mortal agony as my foes taunt me, saying to me all day long, Where is your God? Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and My God.”  -Psalm 42