November 20, 2010 in Uncategorized with 19 Comments

Well, we’re still on our high from the news that Gray’s bone marrow is cancer free and now here we are blessed to hear EVEN MORE good news!! Yesterday, Gray’s doctor came in to speak with us and delivered the news that GRAY’S TUMOR HAS SHRUNK BY HALF!!!!!!!!! We don’t even really know what to say!! There aren’t words!! We’re just choosing to live in THIS moment and to dwell on THIS news!! After the doctor left the room, I was in such shock that I even had to ask the nurse if what I thought I had heard was actually true! Gray looked at such peace as he slept last night and, let me tell you, even sleeping in the hospital (which really can’t be considered sleep at all…) we were all a bit more at rest on the inside. It’s nice to lay in silence and know that God is truly there. He really is hearing our prayers and He really is healing our baby boy. It’s such a wonderful feeling to wake up in the morning and instead of feeling dread wash over you as you realize that this hasn’t all been a bad dream you feel some form of relief inside as you remember the good news from the day before! Again, thank you all for your continued prayers!! Today our tears are of joy, not fear, and our smiles are of relief, not a mask to hide what’s on the inside. Whew. Really…truly…thank you all.

“A weight was lifted today, For once I can finally breathe, It may seem small to some, But to me it’s a huge relief. You don’t know the difference, To you it’s just another day, I though feel a bit lighter somehow, This has to be the only way. The road ahead may still be long, The journey more sorrow may bring, But I choose to live in this moment, Mind clear Spirit free I want to sing. My heart feels a bit more whole tonight, My world just more complete, Let me shout it from the rooftops please, He hears us He cares Our needs He will meet! Let me live here Lord, Let this peace I feel now stay, I almost forgot what it was like, Only feeling fear day after day. When anxiety comes and visits again though, I know what I will do, Look back on this pile of stones, Behind Beside and Before me there is You.” (written by a friend)